Hi everybody,
My name is Pete and i am a 36 year old recovering drug addict, i been clean and sober for almost 4 years now. I recently started working with iboga. When i first got sober i was put on antidepressants (cymbalta) which for the first year it really helped with my anxiety and depression and i also suffer from chronic back pain and cymbalta is marked as an anti depressant and it is also used to treat chronic pain so it made sense to try. After the first year i felt like i didnt need it anymore for the depression / anxiety but it was helping a lot for the chronic pain so i continued to take it and around 1 1/2 years into taking it i noticed that i felt numb, not physically numb but more so emotionally numb, i felt like a zombie, i was perfectly ok with just sitting on my couch not doing anything, but the problem was i really wasnt ok just sitting around and about 2 years into this i fell back into a severe depression and my anxiety was worse then it ever was. i felt like i was wasting my life, but i wasnt able to do anything about it. after suffering like this for another year, i finally decided i had enough and something told me to try iboga. this was a very difficult decision for me to make, because i am in recovery from drug addiction and i still go to regular AA & NA meetings and i love AA and NA they saved my life and the philosophy in the rooms is " A drug, is a drug, is a drug" meaning any mind altering chemicals i put into my body would only lead me down the same path of destruction i was on, i lost 10-15 years of my life because i couldnt stop using drugs and i dont ever want to end up like that again, My life is good today, i run my own home based business, i have a nice condo by the beach, but most importantly im happy and i dont ever want to do anything that could jeopardize that!
Back in my early years i experimented A LOT with different psychedelics like lsd, 5-meo-dmt, 4-aco-dmt, mushrooms, you name it and i saw there potential. my problem back then was i couldnt tell the difference between a drug and a medicine and i abused everything, but im sober now, i work a good program and most importantly in my heart of hearts i knew iboga was a medicine and i knew i was only taking it to try to heal myself from this damage these psych drugs did to me. i contacted a well known vendor and at first i was going to do a flood but something told me to try micro dosing first, so thats what i did. i bought a bunch of the powdered root back capsules and i started with taking 2x 300mgs around breakfast, lunch and dinner i did this for the first 2 days and i sweated my balls off, i was sitting in the A/C just sweating for 2 days. on day 3 i took 3x 300mg after a light breakfast lunch and dinner, by day 4 i really didnt notice any effects other then the first 2 days of sweating and music sounded better, but there was time distortion everything seemed to slow down which was great for me because i run my own business and im always in a hurry. this showed me by slowing down and taking my time i would actually get more stuff done.
On day 4 and i was on my way to an AA meeting and i would always experience a lot of anxiety in meetings. this time it was different, i started to feel the anxiety and at that point in time, i detached from the anxiety. i was still able to feel it but it wasnt in me anymore, it was out side of me and i heard a voice say " This is why you are feeling this way". it was right there in front of me and i was able to see it for what it really was. then it just went away and hasnt come back since that was 4 months ago. the whole time this was happening, i was still totally aware of everything that was going on around me, it was just like for 1 second time slowed down doctor iboga can in fixed what needed fixing and then i went about my day. it was amazing and so much more was said in that time, but i cant for the life of me remember what it was. all i can remember is the profound sense of amazement i felt at the very end of it. the next day the center of my forehead felt weird. i felt pressure in my 3rd eye and saw and felt and saw the calcification break away. in the very moment i saw myself plug into the cosmic energy grid. i saw and felt this enegry serge up through my chakras and shoot out the top of my head, then my energy field started to spiral around me, opening me up and kind of knock off this stuff i been carrying around with me, as i saw all this happening i heard a voice say "sometimes we pick up things that are not our own and if we dont rid ourselves of them they will bog us down, this is how we rid ourselves of that energy". now keep in my i was in no way shape or form experience any "psychedelic" effects. these were true visions and they seemed to take place in the moments between time, outside of this realm. it was like doc iboga was saying, "look here, see" it was one of the most profound experiences of my life and there were no "psychedelic" effects at this level when these visions were happening. i was sitting in my office at home talking to one of my helpers, just going about my day, i went outside after this and everything was glowing. i saw very mild trails coming off lights, i saw that as a sign that i was cleansed.
the next day i woke up refreshed with no withdrawls at all from the antidepressants, my depression and anxiety has been gone since, after this experience i started learning everything i can about iboga, the bwiti and other sacred medicines. my search first lead me to ayahuasca, then to kambo, i still have a lot of negative energy and patterns i picked up from years of drug use. im sure these medicines can help me, i recently signed up for a weekend retreat here in the states for kambo and aya ceremony. i wanted to go to peru but with my busy work schedule and the fact that i dont have a passport yet so i guess i will have to wait for that. before i try to apply the kambo myself i thought it best to go to someone who can show me how to do it properly. i want to try kambo because i am tired all the time. i just have no energy at all and it sucks. i tried coffee, energy pill and drinks, all kinds of vitamines and nothing helps. my mom is the same way and says she has been like that since she was about my age. i also have chronic back pain and i have read that kambo can be helpful for that too, because i cant and wont take any kind of opiate and non narcotic pain meds really dont help much. i am hoping that working with these medicines can help me with that. The only thing that concerns me is that i do have high blood pressure. its very mild and my heart is fine.
i guess it just runs in the family because my sisters, mother and father all have high blood pressure. i think alot of it has to do with me being so depressed and unactive for 2-3 years and i just have poor circulation. i have been exercising a lot and im not on any other kinds of meds, does anybody have any advice or personal experience having HBP and using Kambo? should i stop taking my meds 72 hours before? from what i read kambo causes your heart to race and blood to flow quickly and it also lowers BP? which i dont understand because one would think the heart racing would cause the blood to flow faster which would make the BP go higher? i dont know, kambo is very new to me and i dont want to die

thants for taking the time to read this and thanks for all the great info here.. Love & Light Pete
EDITED: Added line breaks to help readability.EDITED: Combined posts.Im looking into my first Kambo experience and i want to be safe, im a 36 year old over all healthy male, except i have mildly high blood pressure and what i mean by that is im on the lowest possible dose of one of the weakest bp meds on the market, my heart is heathy. HBP just seems to run in my family, so my question is 1. is it safe for me to do? 2 should i continue to take my bp meds or should i not take them the day of, 2 days before or 72 hours. from what i read kambo lowers bp and i dont want my bp getting too low. Any help would be greatly appreciated.