It shouldn't be hard to from the globules. drip some water onto the stick and rub back and forth on a section of it with a knife, then just work it into balls.
Yes, it does hit you straight away, and that is intense, nevermind if you have no experience with it or a guide. All in all I would say for your first time you did fine. You learned from the experience and you probably got a pretty good detox out of all the sweating. Seems like you came close to a purge, though sweating is also a form of a purge as well as shitting, if which doesn't happen after application, will happen later, and which you can usually tell seems to be more toxic and putrid. Sweating, puking, shitting, even burping are all forms of purging, though we find it to be more beneficial to have a strong purge right after application, so that toxins which are surfaced are not reabsorbed back into the body. Though some people tend to purge differently sometimes.
Maybe there is a reason some sweat profusely or have diarrhea instead of puking. I have had it occur in people I have applied kambo to. I had someone I could not get to puke, I applied point after point after point and losing count of how many. He was sweating and then just shit. But hey, it's still detoxification.
Wiping the kambo off is no big deal, except that we usually wait till we want no more of it. Make sure when you burn that you scrape the top dead layer of skin off, sometimes a burn may be too light, and if the top layer isn't penetrated or removed, the kambo won't be absorbed at that point.
After you apply, have some quiet calming music on and lie or sit down, whichever is more comfortable, so that you don't end up crawling across the floor with anxiety or disorientation.
although it was hell when i was in it.
I hear ya, it's an intense experience which never seems to get much easier, except for the fact that you lose some of the shock and fear once you have experienced it.
Although you did not get the puke, the kambo is still doing work on you.
Welcome to the Kambo club.
