Kambogahuasca, I owe you a huge thanks. I've been taking NAC for a couple weeks now and the effects have been great. I just feel more level headed and intrusive and obsessive thoughts are going. I even found that parts of my personality are shining through again, and thats something I feel like I lost touch with a while ago. So thanks so much! Its really interesting how much our words or sharing of experiences can have such positive effects sometimes even when it seems like such an easy action.

I do have a question for you regarding Sarcosine also. I ordered NAC and Sarcosine seperately (not combined like the profrontal formula) so after taking NAC for a couple weeks I introduced Sarcosine. I was expecting my symptoms to improve even more but actually it feels like I got pulled back a little to how I felt before. I took a very small amount, 500 mg and im taking 600 mg of NAC once daily. Any recommendations on dosage? Is it even necessary to take the 2 together? maybe I should just stick to NAC? Or is there a way to make the 2 work ?

Thanks!

Update:

I did my 3rd kambo ceremony with the intention of purging this sort of delusion I've been living in since my heavy marijuana use.

I basically broke down and felt a lot of sadness inside of me. I had suppressed it so much it was really hard to get a good cry out.. like I wanted to but it was just that difficult. I went through a lot of conscious purging and just felt a lot of intense sadness and loneliness and the connection I have to my father. Just a lot of sadness but it felt so good to be sad finally, something I havent felt free to express ever in my childhood home.

At one point I was purging through my relationship with marijuana. It seems like the pot was sort "helping" me with my traumas when I was a teen, but I still hadnt addressed what was really going on. I let go of the marijuana spirit and I could feel her running cleanly through my chakras. I felt a real loving spacious relationship. That was and is a big shift for me.

I guess I'm sort of answering my own post in that Kambo can help with purging marijuana. My perception of it has changed. I can see that it is a loving plant, just widely abused. I see life and other people more clearly. I don't see people as "strangers" as much as I did when I smoked. I feel connected again.. gosh it feels good to type those words

A little about myself:

I'm a 26 year old guy from Canada. I started my journey with plant medicine about a year ago (wow feels like so much longer). I've been dealing with a lot of emotional stress and trauma from childhood, and have been striving to reconnect with people again. Its something that feels so hard since I basically isolated myself and drowned myself in pot during my teens. So yeah, on a positive note, just have been learning more about myself and how I relate to the world around me. Its been an intense learning experience.

I started with Ayahuasca at a great place in Holland. I did a lot of work there learning about the ego, the mind, letting go of emotions, etc. I then took part in an Iboga ceremony which was an incredible initiation. I feel like the gift that Iboga gives is just so pure and also necessary in this day and age. Iboga helped in a lot of ways, and still continues to. It really uprooted THE deep childhood trauma. I'm now interested in Kambo. I really just felt the call recently. Id heard about it before but with less interest. Now I'm so eager for the experience.

Its really nice to have this online community where people can share ideas. I have a few questions about the Kambo experience and its healing potential.

When I took Iboga, It really helped me heal, but from a sort of detached state. While I'm grateful for my life, I still struggle quite intensely during day to day life. Emotional stress in my life has manifested into physical disease, in that I am so sensitive to a variety of foods. No dairy, gluten, unhealthy oils, processed food. While this is a good way to keep my diet clean, it jsut makes things difficult. If I do eat something wrong, i get very intense psychological symptoms also. Moodiness, social anxiety, and even paranoia for certain things (like gluten). I just remember a time when things weren't SO hard. And I hope this doesnt sound like a pity party, just trying to explain the situation . I'm hoping Kambo can help me feel what I need to feel, because I have a hunch that its these suppressed feelings that cause the stomach issues and the feelings of disconnect from the world. My heavy pot use years ago really changed me and I'm hoping Kambo could sort of flush out the negative imprint weed left on me (if that makes sense)

Anway, just wondering if someone with a similar experience or greater knowledge of Kambo could touch on this for me. I know there is no magic answer, but some opinions would be great.

Lots of Love