It's been about a month since I've started to walk a path with the Frog, and here's what I am able to describe in words...



5/29/14  (4, 5, 5 dots)

My first treatment was with a man named Brett, who had been personally recommended to me by Giovanni.  Conveniently, Brett lived just a few hours away from me in Northern California, so I had traveled to Brett's land for an extended weekend for my first few treatments.

Although I felt very comfortable with Brett, overall I was very nervous before my first treatment, remembering everything I had read about feeling awful and intense purging.  I was also nervous about Kambo's effects on the heart - I have never been diagnosed with a heart condition, but I feel that the many years of anorexia, bulimia, and overexercise in my history have put a strain on my heart.  I do also have occasional palpitations.  My fear was of being one of the many few who's heart can not handle the intensity of Kambo.

Before undergoing any shamanic experience, I always set a very clear intention, usually on paper.  My intention for meeting with Kambo was not just physical healing, but healing the roots of my physical ailments in the realm of the heart and spirit.

We decided to start with 4 dots on my outer left calf, about 5 centimeters up from the ankle.  My heart was pounding in anticipation even before the application.  Once the dots were on, I felt a rush of warmth, and the pounding of my heart continued but shifted in quality from that of panic to that of a slightly pleasant exhilaration, as if I were a warrior running full speed through the jungle in full health.

I then had one of the most beautiful experiences of my life.  I felt as if the breezes of the Amazon were blowing through the ventricles of my heart and I saw images of the sky through canopies of trees - a window to a realm of eternity.  It was so beautiful, reassuring, and familiar that I began to cry.  Deep within me resonated that self love was the foundation of all my healing, and I felt the pain from living with such self criticism fall away with my tears.

After about 15 minutes, the experience began to subside.  I had experienced not a bit of nausea.  My fear about working with Kambo had evaporated at this point.  Brett and I decided to add another dot and reapply to all dots, doing another total of 5.

This time, I felt another rush of heat and heart pounding, and now waves of very subtle nausea.  The experience was qualitatively physical now.  I sat patiently through 20 minutes, feeling slight waves of nausea and my intestines gurgling, but never felt enough nausea to purge.

So we decided to do a new set of dots, this time on my inner calf, and using a thicker incense stick to make bigger burns.  We did 5.  This time the heat rush was much more intense.  I felt a "rubber band" effect around my head and my heart was pounding very hard, so hard that I got slightly nervous.  Brett said he could hear my heart pounding from a few feet away and so removed one dot.  I did my best to relax and surrender to the experience, consciously asking the medicine to go to work on me in the most complete way.  Immediately, the Kambo responded by shifting from "heat" mode into a "searching" mode through my gut with waves of nausea.  The nausea was much more pronounced this time.  I continued to to pray and surrender as completely as possible.

At this point I had a profound experience of sensing my illness as I never have been able to before, as it fought against the Kambo.  I felt my illness as a small, unhappy and uncomfortable child, complaining about everything.  In normal life the illness had been manifesting mostly physically, but this time I could feel the emotional roots.  The roots were ungratefulness and unwillingness.  I could feel the illness fighting the Kambo, wanting to stay put.

After about 15 minutes of waves, I purged a very small purge - just a splash of clear liquid.  I felt like there were still buckets of toxins to come up - I could feel them sitting in my stomach like a burning weight, but I didn't have enough nausea to get them up.  Still, I felt a tremendous amount of relief from the small purge.  I also had a liquidy bowel movement.

At this point, I had been in the Kambo realm for over an hour and felt too exhausted to do a 4th set of dots.  I felt extremely tired, but good.  I then took a 3 hour nap and woke up feeling very well - bright, energized, and in a good mood.  I felt that something significant had been released from my energetic field.  That night, I slept solidly for many more hours than usual, and woke up at 7am on the dot the next morning (rare for me, as I had been in an unhealthy cycle of sleeping late into the morning for many months).  I woke up with a freshness and clarity that I had not felt in 6 - 8 years or more, which was very exciting.



5/30/14 (6 dots)

We decided to go right into another Kambo application that morning.  This time, we did 6 of the larger size dots on my right inner calf near the ankle.  This time the "rush" part of the experience was a lot shorter, and the medicine seems to shift more quickly into core searching mode.  After about 10 minutes I had three huge purges from the lower stomach in quick succession, so forceful that it came out my nose.  The vomit was a bitter, yellow watery liquid, and very satisfying to release.  After the purges, I felt a wonderful serenity and knew I was finished with this Kambo session.  I felt complete.

I had another amazing sleep that night and from that point on, noticed a shift in my emotional being.  I felt like a window of light had been opened up in my psyche.  I still felt all of my physical symptoms but my heart felt light and optimistic.  More shifts are discussed in detail later on.



6/8/14  (6 dots)

My next session was back at home with the company and support of my roommate.  It was my first session in which I prepared and applied the dots myself - my roommate was there mostly for energetic support.  He is inexperienced with Kambo.  I wanted to be in a clean and clear environment, so we hiked out to a field near the beach and set a blanket out.  I also wanted to take things really easily because I kind of felt like I was on my own, so I decided to play it safe with 6 dots of the smaller size on my inner right calf.

The dose felt light, and I experienced the characteristic physical symptoms of my first few sessions, but like Day 1, did not have enough force to purge properly.  I again ended up purging just a few spoonfuls of watery liquid.  I did, however, have a large liquidy bowel movement in which I felt some toxins leave.

I really wanted to do another application right then and there to go deeper and move more toxins out, but my roommate had to leave so we went home.  I had in mind to maybe do a second application on my own, but upon visiting the bathroom I saw that the Kambo had initiated my menstrual cycle.  Without a question I knew I was done for this round, because a few days prior, I had had a vivid dream in which I was being warned not to take Kambo while bleeding.

I did drink a ton of coconut water, which has the effect of moving my bowels very quickly, and had several more bowel movements that day, each one leaving me feeling lighter and clearer than the last.

Later that day, an unexpectedly huge breakthrough happened, which was that I boldly let go of a toxic friendship.  There is no question that this was related to my shifting vibrational field from the Kambo work.  From this day on, I continued to notice many more positive shifts in my being and in my life.

After this second week, I really started to notice physical healing, and my emotional and spiritual shift advanced even more.  My heart felt light and alive like a room that had the windows opened and a delicate fresh breeze was blowing through.  My laughter came easily in peals of genuine joy.

My quality of sleep continued to be deep, long, and refreshing into the second week.  This was almost a complete reversal from the poor quality of sleep I had been experiencing without exception for years and one of the most exciting shifts that have come about from working with Kambo.

I also began noticing significant improvement in my digestion – bloating after meals almost completely gone.  Nutrition seemed to be coming more into balance – my brain, body, everything seemed to be functioning better.  Chronic fever and dehydration reduced as well, which is a gift as those were some of my most challenging symptoms.  I also dropped anywhere from 5-10 lbs. of either toxic water retention or fat, and I’ve had more physical energy and have been able to do more exercise!  Basically, all of the symptoms I had been suffering from improved enough to notice.  I still feel like I would have to repeat this improvement many times over to I feel the way I did before the health issues started, but this is an amazing start for which I am profoundly grateful.

Also, my seasonal allergy to redwood pollen – which previously had been severe and very disruptive to my life in the months prior, COMPLETELY DISAPPEARED.

Week 2, I also experienced a very distinct shift in my mental/ emotional/psychic health.  I felt increased sensitivity and intuition, better cognitive function, and a much brighter disposition.  My roommate observed that I seemed like a completely different person.  Most profoundly, I felt a much deeper realization of self love, a fundamental shift that affected pretty much every aspect of my being alive.

Along with better digestion, I also experienced other aspects of my navel chakra increasing in health, for those of you oriented to the chakra system.  Aside from letting go of the toxic relationship I mentioned earlier, I felt much more comfortable and clear in my personal boundaries in other relationships, which was an absolutely blissful experience.  Those of you who have had navel chakras issues understand.  With higher integrity in my energetic boundaries, my heart was free to open more fully!



6/17/14 (total 8 dots)

This next session was my first one completely on my own from start to finish, and there were several notable new factors present.  I did the session in the evening after a day of eating some fruit and coconut water instead of first thing in the morning on an empty stomach (water not included) like the other sessions.  I had very mixed feelings during the day on whether I was going to do Kambo with solid food in my system - without getting into all the factors and details, I decided to go ahead and do it, mainly because it was going to be my last chance to do Kambo for at least another week and I reasoned that fruit digests pretty quickly for me.
 
I decided to start out slowly with 3 smaller size dots on my right inner calf.  About 10 minutes in, I felt like I was ready for more, so I added another 2 dots.  To be honest, I forgot how many dots at a time I added again, but in the end I had 8 dots on my skin.  However, I was using a very light preparation of the medicine with a lot of water and saliva.

This session was comparable in intensity to the previous ones, and produced a very interesting purge about 25 minutes in.  It felt like one of the easiest purges I have ever gone through, and almost voluntary on my part.  I was definitely assisting the purge by leaning over and breathing heavily to stimulate my gag reflex - I didn't want to end up re-digesting toxins.  Part of me felt mixed about taking such an active role in the purging, however, a LOT of bitter yellow liquid did come up - the highest volume of any purge so far.  At no point during this session was anything unpleasant besides some very manageable nausea.  Interestingly, inspecting the vomit (which was mostly yellow liquid, I found a tiny bright red glob the size of 1/2 a pea that I have yet to identify.  I thought it might be blood was it was too solid.
It has been about 10 days since that last session, and I have definitely been feeling some strange results.  Most or all of the positive physical shifts have stayed with me – the improved sleep, digestion, weight loss, reduced fever symptoms, etc.  However, there is no question that mentally and emotionally I have been feeling a bit off.  The experience is difficult to describe because I simultaneously feel aware, yet foggy and unclear at the same time.  I feel as Kambo is rearranging my psyche but I am mid-transition and all the pieces are not in the right place yet.

I have had more issues with personal boundaries this week, more issues with time wasting and lethargy, lack of focus, and procrastination.  It took me 4 days to write this post – a task that should only take a day with proper focus.  My heart and head feel stuffy and unclear.  This is the way I often feel a week before my moon cycle, except that it is not that time of the month right now.



Thoughts


Overall, I am surprised at how gentle the Kambo has been with me during the actual sessions, yet how dramatic the results have been.  The nausea and malaise is almost nothing compared to what I have been through with ayahuasca.  Literally, just a fraction.  I was prepared for much more difficulty but have been pleasantly surprised.  Of course, this implies the question - could I be doing much higher doses of Kambo?

But my journey just 4 weeks in has already had its twists and turns - this 3rd and 4th week being on.  I’m not sure whether the funk I experiences this past 10 days has been a natural fluctuation in the healing process (and those I am very familiar with), or results of something I actually caused during the procedures of the 3rd week of Kambo.  Thinking back to that 3rd session – several factors felt off:  doing the Kambo with solid food in my stomach, and also doing it in a setting that didn’t feel quite “sacred” to me.  Where I currently live is in a somewhat crowded neighborhood and the house has a lot of confusing energy.  The house is messy and unorganized and I was very hesitant about opening myself up into a shamanic state here.  In the end I decided to do it and maybe this was a mistake?

I have every intention to continue with Kambo treatments, but I would like to gain some insight on my progress and current state of being before continuing.

If you have read this far, thank you for reading this long post.  I would love to hear any reflections or feedback!  I am so grateful this forum is here - thank you all for being here.

(Also, here is a link to the introduction I posted, in which I explain some background information, for those of you who didn't see it:
http://kambo.me/smf/index.php?topic=381.0 )